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● 頑是ない歌 An Innocent Poem
思へば[思えば]遠く来たもんだ
十二の冬のあの夕べ
港の空に鳴り響いた
汽笛の湯気[ゆげ]は今いづこ[いずこ]
I realize now that I have walked the long distance.
On a winter evening when I was twelve years old,
I heard a whistle that echoed throughout the heavens over the
port.
Where is its steam gone?
雲の間に月はゐて[いて]
それな汽笛を耳にすると
竦然[しょうぜん]として身をすくめ
月はその時空にゐた[いた]
The long-gone evening reminds me of a twilight moon
glistening among clouds.
The evening whistle I heard at that moment
made me shrink back in awe with horror.
The moon, at that time, remained to be seen in the sky.
それから何年経つたことか
汽笛の湯気を茫然と
眼で追ひ[追い]かなしくなつてゐた[なっていた]
あの頃の俺はいまいづこ[いまいずこ]
How many years is it since then?
At that time I, in a daze, kept an eye on the whistle steam
that made me sad.
Where is what I was in those days gone?
今では女房子供持ち
思へば[思えば]遠く来たもんだ
此[こ]の先まだまだ何時までか
生きてゆくのであらう[あろう]けど
Now I have a wife and children.
I realize that I have walked the long distance.
For years to come, probably still much longer for an indefinite
time,
I'm likely to be allowed to be alive, though.
生きてゆくのであらう[あろう]けど
遠く経て来た日や夜[よる]の
あんまりこんなにこひしゆては[こいしゅうては]
なんだか自信が持てないよ
Yes, I'm likely to be allowed to be alive,
but I'm afraid I don't have confidence in myself,
for I'm this much sick for the old days and nights
I have been walking through so far.
さりとて生きてゆく限り
結局我ン張る[がんばる]僕の性質[さが]
と思へば[思えば]なんだか我ながら
いたはしい[いたわしい]よなものですよ
For all that, as long as I continue to be alive,
I have to stand out firm after all is said,
for a natural human bent of mine.
I am ashamed of myself to say, however,
this way of thinking seems to be a little bit pitiful.
考へて[考えて]みればそれはまあ
結局我ン張る[がんばる]のだとして
昔恋しい時もあり そして
どうにかやつてはゆくのでせう[ゆくのでしょう]
A further consideration shows as a conclusion that
I have to stand out firm from this time forth.
At one time or another in the future, however,
I'm afraid I might still be sick for the good old days,
but I expect I'll somehow manage to lead a life.
考へて[考えて]みれば簡単だ
畢寛[ひっきゃう→ひっきょう]意志の問題だ
なんとかやるより仕方もない
やりさへ[やりさえ]すればよいのだと
Yes, the further consideration has shown that
this is simple and easy.
In short, it is a matter of a determined will.
There is no other alternative.
All I have to do is to live with a strong will.
思ふ[思う]けれどもそれもそれ
十二の冬のあのタベ
港の空に鳴り響いた
汽笛の湯気や今いづこ[いずこ]
Though I realize now that I have to go forward with an iron will,
I'm still somehow sick for the good old days.
On a winter evening when I was twelve years old,
I heard a whistle that echoed throughout the sky over the port.
Where is its steam gone?
(中原中也 [1907-1937].『在りし日の歌』[詩集. 1938.]から)
(Nakahara, Chuya. Arishihi no Uta: Poems of Bygone Days.[A Collection
of Poems. 1938.])
（英訳：坂井孝彦 English Translation: Sakai, Takahiko）
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